Almost Lover

My grades are shit. I'm constantly eating, and it's always shitty junk food. I'm not doing my homework. I still can't sleep. I'm avoiding everyone. I can eat four bites of lunch and be content, then I stuff my face when I get home. Nothing interests me. My thoughts are like, grey. Like I'm trying to drag them out of the ocean at dawn or some shit like that.

I thought I was getting better. Is this all there is?